GRAAAA C:

2011-04-17T00:15:00.000-07:00

april 2011
guess im finally used to sec3
2E and 3G is quite a big diff
its much noisier, and much harder to handle
but i guess i hav my old friend to thank for helping
but, with an old friend back
i've messed up my relationship with another
i noe im being vry nosy to actually tell him those things
but, i don want him to feel disappointed when this ends
i noe i shouldnt make it seem so ... bad...
but, i don see her going to suddenly accept you anytime soon
sorry, but hate me if you want to, i've said my piece, its on you whether you want to listen

2011-04-04T06:23:00.000-07:00

lols. one thing i forget to mention.
OMG SATURDAY 2APRIL2011 WAS AWESOME
i wish it never ended
well i wish the *** never came even more XD
well though i was having such a good time
with all those people
or jus *******
damn happy :)
working towards being closer now
keep my mouth shut
omg wats wrong with me

2011-04-04T06:08:00.000-07:00

im back.
not really happy.
but. not sad either.
actually im really feeling anything.
cus nothing much is happening in my life.
funny things? laugh den its over.
what's the point?
lols, enough emo-ing
i feel so sad for this very sweet guy from this very stupid show
prosecutor princess if im not wrong
its a korean drama
ok name the people first
the female character is A. the sweet guy is B. and the one tat A likes is C.
B likes A like obviously. but A likes C.
but B does all those sweet sweet things for A
though he knows he doesnt stand a chance
(and B is so much more shuai den C!)
all those things he's doing
is trying to let A be with C
i mean, put yourself in his shoes
how much pain he mus be going through
but he still puts on a smile in front of her
and does all those things for her
and yet she doesnt know a thing
how sad :(
would any1 do such things for me?
mayb one day?
im dreaming too much again yeah....
but even if thr is, i guess i'd be my usual idiotic self
acting like i know everything
but actually without his help i cant achieve anything
yet i don noe tat he knows everything and is helping me
how cool would it be if i was tat main character?
......wats wrong with me......
hear nothing. see nothing. feel nothing. do nothing. cause nothing.

2011-02-02T06:17:00.002-08:00

chinese new year!
but im not really feeling very happy
pain like siao now :(
urgh this sucks life sucks everything sucks
apparently my computer hates me now
ok it always has but URGH!!!
in 14 days my antivirus thingy gona expire
thrs freaking lots of problems in my computer
its always damn lag
and well it jus hates me.
im alone at home now
mum went back to malaysia
and the rest went to chinatown
too pain le la.... don want go...
the school is retarded
they had a fire drill in the middle of the celebration
the PA system screwed up when dance was preforming
and liyang and kelly sort of failed in mc-ing
i gotta look for some new songs
starting to think JJ's songs are nice
lols. mayb i'll go listen if i cant find any other kpop...

currently. i feel nothing.

2011-01-22T23:16:00.000-08:00

Girl, I still regret a lot
I wanna I wanna turn back times

Baby girl, I erase your trace
I erase your name, but I still can't forget you
You tried to hold on, but I pushed you off (why)
Only after I let you go, I regretted it
Like this, I miss you (miss you, miss you)

Ey, stop, our last moment together is driving me to the edge of the cliff

After time flows and flows and the pain has become memories
If you can just return with the heart that loved me
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl

Stuck in the silent room
All day long, I go crazy at thoughts of you
No matter how much I call out to you, you're not here

Only I, crumbling without you, remain here

Why couldn't I hold on to you then (why)
Only after I let you go, I regretted it
Like this, miss you (I miss you, I need you, I'm sorry, no way)
Come to me again

After time flows and flows and the pain has become memories
If you can just return with the heart that loved me
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl

Come back to me, smiling like nothing is wrong
Stay by my side, I can't forget you even if I die
Wait there, at that spot at that place
I won't let you go, I can't live even one day without you

I empty the glass filled with the regret and sadness of sending you away
Intoxicated, I sincerely want to again
I do nothing, ever since I lost you, my world has stopped
And in its center, you are there, ma babe

I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl
I'm sorry girl I'm sorry girl

Romanized lyrics of I'm Sorry by B2ST <3 TTM!!!!!

2011-01-11T05:28:00.001-08:00

alot of times. theres many problems in our lifes.
its jus tat we pretend we don noe its thr.
cus tats the easy way out.
and hell yeah, im doing tat.
you ask me to stop pretending.
sorry, but pretending to be wat?
i pretend to be lots of things
its jus tat you don noe
so don think you noe me well
cus you noe nothing bout me actually.
this applies to every1.
as in literally every1
cus no matter how much you talk to someone
there's always some part deep down
tat you yourself might not even actually
-how say- noe about.

had a small little chat with gillian babe
and i started crying.
lols, like seriously.
i really miss gillian so much.
in front of her i can be me.
th stupid dumb girl who pretends to noe more den she actually does
no need to pretend to be anything.
no matter wat i do, she'll understand
and even if she doesnt she'll still back me up
tats one thing i'll never hav any doubt about.

and now, although im like not talking to my primary school friends
like jus random chats those kind of stuff
i still trust them, i still love them
and i noe i always will :)

i miss the old days
when i cared bout no one but myself
when i didnt hav to think so much
when 1 wrong word wouldnt make the world crash down...
when i don care bout how i look
when im jus plain idiotic absolutely annoying bitch jennifer.
but hell, those days are gone.
now everything changed.

im glad i hav a friend like xinying
she's somewat like gillian.
jus tat she's like from outerspace.
an alien who doesnt like to gossip.
but still listens to me talk bullshit.
who doesnt listen to kpop, or even english songs
but still lets me blast mine

these people. will forever be in my list of best friends <3 hugs and kisses!

gillian.kenneth.jessie.xinying.denise.geraldine.jiajia.
no doubt at all.
sorry if im missing any1, gtg now
bye~

2011-01-08T05:49:00.000-08:00

i know its been like quite long since i last posted
and my last post was crap
and i have nothing to do now
so here i am :)

ok la im doing something.
im listening to songs~ obviously kpop
<3 FT Island <3 2PM <3 2AM <3 B2ST
haha XD got more luh
but now jus looking for their songs...
cus im real slow on music
i like find them on youtube and get hooked on
months after its released
so ya, i noe tats dumb luh
but who cares?

new year new start ok not exactly
but yeah new year so imma sec3
tat jus sounds so weird
i miss being a sec2
being a 'uppersec' is jus so. weird.
don like it...
even worst, since first day of school my voice gone
like seriously gone
can only whisper
sad :( walao i scared stay like this sia
it seriously sucks not being able to talk normally
new class. erm. weird. but im surviving.
sitting with amelia all the way at the back
i pity amelia sia
it mus be so boring for her sitting beside a mute
touch wood touch wood...
new tchr. melissa lee. she my chinese tchr oso sia
tat sucks sucks sucks
and i got ckk for mathss
i cant rmb wat she's teaching sia
the hw is like i keep go looking at the tb example
and im still suck
for Amaths luh
Emaths is easy
for now.

im seriously totally addicted to 숨 by B2ST
XD <3 <3 <3 downloading it into my phone now

2010-12-12T23:21:00.000-08:00

"You're Beautiful" rock ttm!!! <3
Jeremy (LeeHongKi) is so freaking CUTE!!! <3
ShinWoo (JungYongHwa) is so damn SHUAI!!! <3
ah omg im totally addicted

"I can't see any stars cause of the tears in my eyes. But I guess it's better that way. If I can't see. I won't hope for anything. I won't be disappointed again. And it wouldn't be so hard."
so sad :/

"There's lots of stars tonight." "It's too dark, I can only see the moon" "It's so pretty." "The moon is just reflecting the sun's light." "I guess I'm like the moon relying on the sun then..." "But no one will see the sun's brilliance at night if not for the moon"
so sweet XD

2010-12-09T06:57:00.000-08:00

reliving the memories tat only i treasure :/

2010-11-23T22:04:00.000-08:00

i jus read your blog
so here goes...

dear youknowwhoyouare
before things got complicated
i was your friend
and i was there for you
no matter what
but tat 'no matter what' was too hard for me
to take the pressure
im a weakling and i couldnt take it
and im sorry tat you were the price i had to pay to learn
and i love you
i still do
i never disliked you or anything like tat
seriously
and thanks for the advice
but i guess im better at lying
whether it is to myself or not
you noe tat i tried before
you noe it didnt work
but this time round
things are different
thanks to you
i noe you've been through alot
im sorry im not thr for you anymore
bye
oh and btw, wishing gives me hope
though i noe its not gona happen
but it makes me feel better

if tat/this is complaining, we'r both doing it
our definition of complaining are so different

2010-11-23T21:43:00.000-08:00

i haven touched my homework yet
and im reading my sister's keeper again
tat jus shows how bored i am
urgh the only good thing bout holidays
is tat i can sleep all i want
but den for some who noes wat the hell reason
i jus cant fall asleep this days
i stare the ceiling for hours before i can fall asleep
and after tat i oways dream the same dream
a very weird and terrible dream
and i still rmb the day it started
it was the day we had the bbq
i woke up at 6+ cus of tat dream
urgh i hate this
im getting eye bags! :(

tomorrow's the farewell party
and urgh! still got lots of things haven settle
omg im so gona kill kimberley
she actually told maam gerksin tat im in charge
so now everybody comes finding me when they got problem
with their part of the job
urgh
my phone's been ringing like crazy

29 December 2010 is gona be my cousin's wedding!
YAY! but i'll be at camp so not sure if i can go
but still. this wedding isnt supposed to be happening
until after 4 February 2011
but den my cousin's a bit kan chiong
so. im gona have another nephew/niece in round june next year
so their getting married now instead of waiting for
my cousin's fiancées tummy to grow big :)
so round december my family members living in malaysia
gona come to singapore! yay~
its gona be so fun
their said to be staying for round a week
but not sure yet
but den by tat time
school starts. hell.

came back from cooking soup and realized i haven publish this
lols. nothing else to say oso.
BYE

2010-11-22T19:51:00.000-08:00

i feel bad saying this

but seriously

after leaving you

my life got so much more peaceful

no more bitch crap or wateva shit

so maybe its for the better

since you seem to be leading a better life too

whether or not you're using someone else to lie to yourself

JenniferFong is currently free from everything tat makes her cry

awesome

when i heard bout you from them

i seriously couldnt believe

isit tat you've rly change like they said

or tat they jus tolerated you shit so much they cant tahan anymore

i dunno

and i suppose i don care either

though i really want to know

but hell

i don wanna get myself involved in anyt related to you

so wat if i regret things i did

everything's over

the past is no more...

did some stupid shyt notes on fb cus i got nothing to do lately

after finish watching playful kiss <3

and now

i can proudly say tat i know who my real friends are

i can truly say tat i don like anyone anymore

JenniferFong is finally free

she learnt her lesson

real friends?

i guess you're not one of them

cus unlike xinying <3

instead of telling me 'its okay, im your friend you can tell me and i'll still be here for you'

you bombed things on me as if i didnt know them

those things were the reason why i jus broke down tat day

and hell i do not need any1 to repeat them to me

crushes?

yeap, all crushed up.

2010-11-04T21:20:00.000-07:00

my grandfather passed away on 26 october 6.55pm

all that i share with him is a photograph taken during my cousin's wedding

and i wasnt even smiling in tat picture

he was an awesome person

i remember seeing him kill chickens

he'd be outside the house

and me and my cousins would grab a chair, sit thr and watch him

i remember when we were at the old house

with the fish tank

he would change the water in the tank

without taking the fishes out

i remember the way all the fierce looking dogs

would stand aside when he makes jus 1 sound

i remember how he always keeps a smile on his face

his birthday was just a few days later

he'd be 82 if he passed his birthday

i really miss him :/

2010-10-10T00:18:00.000-07:00

i've been crying so much

tat i've don even noe why im crying

i noe i'll get past this period of time

its jus gona be very hard for a long while to come

my heart aches to see those things

but i guess im getting used to it

it sucks not being able to do those things again

but wat can i do

its my fault

but if you guys could jus understand

...................

wats the point of saying this now?

2010-10-06T22:43:00.000-07:00

my dumbness sucked the good things away like a black hole, and only left the bad memories behind

theres a hole in my heart

im dying

i want to commit suicide

i want to die and leave everything behind

i want to go to heaven

where i'll be forgiven

i knew this would happen

tats why i didnt want to tell

but i was scared

so fucking scared

things got back to the way it was before

but it feels different

i lost something

something important

im reaching out

trying to get it back

but im jus grabbing the air

their too fucking far away

to hear me say anything

hell

i don want to care anymore

2010-10-04T23:29:00.000-07:00

i seem to cry much more easily when im alone

and well

thrs much more or me to cry bout now

i noe those things was directed at me

and well i don noe bout tat other 1

hell i noe nothing at all

now all i wanna do is cry

cry and hav no idea why

cus this reason is fucking stupid

so fucking stupid i don even want to tell

the ppl who care

like seriously

i should stay off fb

(which is impossible)

cus its like everytime i open fb

i burst out crying

and yes. it is obvious why.

to the ppl who noe

so i hope its obvious to you too

since you're the 1 who said !@#$%^&*

since you're the 1 who noes

fucked up

2010-10-03T06:04:00.000-07:00

some say it's not over till it's over

but i guess this is really over now

there's something i gotta say before i let you go

listen

when you have a fight with him

sometimes you cry and feel sad and blue

i become hopeful

my heart aches secretly

then just a hint of your smile

can make me feel fine again

to keep you from figuring out how i feel about you

cause then we would drift apart

i hold my breathe, bite my lips

please leave him and come to me

baby please don't take his hand

cause you should be my lady

i've been waiting for you for so long

please look at me now

when the music stops

you will vow to spend the rest of your life with him

how i prayed every night this day would never come

the wedding dress you're wearing

it's not me next to you

you never knew how i felt about you

and i hated you so

sometimes i wished you would be unhappy

now i have no more tears left to cry

when im by myself i talk to you like you're here

i've felt so restless every night

maybe i've known all along this would happen

i close my eyes and dream an endless dream

please leave him and come to me

baby please don't take his hand

cause you should be my lady

i've been waiting for you for so long

look at me now

when the music stops

you will vow to spend the rest of your life with him

how i prayed every night this day would never come

the wedding dress you're wearing

it's not me next to you

please be happy with him so that i can forget you

please forget how miserable i looked

it's going to be unbearably hard for me for a long while to come

for such a long time i've lived in an illusion like a fool

she is still smiling at me so brightly

the wedding dress you're wearing

2010-09-25T23:22:00.000-07:00

i really hate this feeling

all i can do is hope tat its not true

hope tat it wont happen

i really think it wont

but wat if mayb it does happen?

**** and ******* agrees with me loh

we all don 1 it to happen...

cross fingers and pray~

I keep looking at those things

the photos the chats

the things which only they understand

which i don

its starting to make me feel so emo

like wth

to *******

thanks for talking with me ytd :)

i've known you for so long

but seriously

tat was like the 1st time you actually

told me something

you are so pro

i should really learn from you huh :)

2010-09-23T07:32:00.000-07:00

ITS MY BIRTHDAY TODAY!!!!!!!!!!

so im gona talk bout wat happened

the things i can remember la :x

went to school like normal

went to parade square with geraldine

paul was at the 3rd floor

and he shouted happy birthday down :)

geraldine said tat was romantic =.=

went back to class

which paul said was locked

but geraldine opened

PAUL FAIL!!!!

ruth said happy birthday :)

kimberly said happy birthday :)

loads of ppl said happy birthday :)

and some gave me presents :)

den chapel

super sleepy

slept almost the whole way through :x

den maths

before mrspeh came

the guys was writing things on the board

trying to sabo me!

but i erased it :x

i noe im a bad sport but its natural reflex XP

yeeyuan still purposely write super high

den i cnt reach!

heng... i wasnt sabo-ed

den recess

which was eaten by muffin test

cus sandykoh messed up the date =.=

but it was still quite fun

took pics of all the muffins

gona post them on fb soon

every1's muffin was all quite nice :)

and mine didnt fail!

it was quite nice too :)

den went back to class with kui after getting scolded by sandykoh

he said mark used his recipe

so i guess his tasted tat way

so i indirectly ate his muffins :)

went back for chinese

it was like normal class la

wasnt sabo-ed :)

den history

which i got sabo-ed

english. chinese. kui still 'malay! filipino!'

super funny :)

ate the muffins in class

den slept through the rest

mr chang is nice :)

den lit

class test

and busy writing

after school was when the fun started :)

kui mark mana titus went to somerset ytd to buy and decorate cake for me!

i tot they went to study sia! still wanted to join them lols!

the cake tasted real nice

though it looked notreallynice

i feel so touched :)

got cream on my face and hair expectedly

run like siao when kui chased me

but still got the cream =.=

den went home with yeeyuan :)

i'd rather not talk bout wat happened at home

its basically normal anyway

my birthday was awesome

but it wont be without my friends

so....

THANKS to those we wished me happy birthday

THANKS to those who chipped in for the cake

THANKS to kaiteng xinying denise jenessa shimin geraldine jiajia who gave me presents

THANKS to kuiqiang mark mana titus for buying the cake

lastly

THANKS TO EVERYONE FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY AWESOME TTM :)

2010-09-23T06:40:00.000-07:00

oh fuck.

i wrote a super long post on my bday jus now

but it didnt save!!!!!

gag

i'll need to write it again

wait ppl!!!!!!!

2010-09-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

to *******

thanks

you were the only one who actually noticed

and cared enough to ask why

when im notinagoodcondition

im always emo not only cus of him kay

thrs other things...

so please don presume tat its him

when you see me sad

either way, im over him

to ****

sorry

i noe your -letsay- problems

are bigger than mine

harder than mine

more fucked up than mine

but i jus cant handle things like you can

i cant fake up a smile as well as you can

i cant keep a facade as well as you can

i admit all this

and im really very sorry

cus im acting like my problems are bigger

harder and more fucked up

jus cus i cant handle them

im really trying my best here

im trying to fucking let go

im trying to smile

so pls, jus for this while

until im done trying and it actually works

jus let me be

to *******

im really happy for you

seriously

you don hav to put me before him

i'll pop up imediately and replace him

if anything ever happens

pinky swear ok

i'll always be here for you

like you're always here for me

im really thinking the bad way

but still, back up plans for you

ME :) jus tat im no lesbo

to ****

i seriously give up trying

you fucking piss me off

when you say tat you cant do it

cus i noe it wont kill you

i noe why you act this way la

but den, do you really hav to do this?

cant you see how much more weirder things became

sometimes a girl jus wanna keep to herself

you cant expect her to tell you everything

things of the heart

needs to be straightened out by the person her/himself

help may be of use

but not now

people change

jus cus you liked her and not anymore now

you don hav to treat her like tat

and ohya

im not pretending to like her

im pretending to be dumb and acting as if i dunno

to ****

you are annoying

but still sweet

so thanks

i really hav no idea wat else to say other than tat

its like you can choose timing 1 loh

everytime im crying or something

den you'll come over and talk with me

lols. thanks.

to ********

i noe you noe

cus ,well, **** said you knew

so ya

thanks for pretending

but don worry

im over you

even if im not

i'd act like i am

hope tat i didnt cause you any, problem

or make you feel burdened

2010-09-15T04:27:00.000-07:00

seriously

im trying my best

but it isnt working

it still hurts me to see

it still hurts me to hear

it still hurts me to know

guess she was right

you don hav a choice with this kind of stuff

i really tot tat i could

i tot if i tried my best

i could

but i guess i was wrong

2010-09-10T21:51:00.000-07:00

fuck

i don noe why i feel this way

everytime i talk to anyone bout things

like this

i jus feel so sad

to ****:

thanks hor

i mean its really weird the way you know wat im thinking and everything

but at least i know someone cares enough

to try and understand

guess he's really jus too dumb

to find out anything

but i guess its really better this way

him being dumb will let his relationship with her last longer

cus we'r too sensitive, things jus isnt working out

but still

cheer up!

your problems cant be bigger than mine

considering you being a guy

and you and HER are perfectly normal

but den the monday thing, still, sorry for probing

don emo! :(

2010-09-10T06:02:00.000-07:00

*hai*

didnt go out with denise and xinying ytd

didnt have the mood to go out

and today den i realised

tat i didnt reply denise's messages ytd

sorry denise

i felt completely emo ytd

i dunno why

*hai*

i dunno if i should pull out of nanjing trip leh

im currently 90% on the *pull out* side

if denise nvr go. 5%. and mana pull out with me. 5%

but im not sure bout both

i have no idea wat to do

i mean go nanjing

it sounded fun

but now tat i actually think bout it

its a little mafan

and it'll be freaking cold thr

and i don hav any winter clothing

and seniors say tat by den

the snowing season is over

so i wont get to see real snow even if i go

*hai*

tmr oso dunno if i should go out

with mana, kui, thomas, stephanie and marylin

thing is i haven ask my mum =.=

but i think she'll let me go

another thing is im not really close to stephanie and marylin

especially marylin, i don even say hi to her =.=

and thomas is annoying

and i jus finished doing a fb note/quiz thingy

which said im 96% mentally unstable

HELP!!!!!!!!!! :(

2010-09-09T06:41:00.000-07:00

should i delete my blog?

no one comes here anyway

its jus tat i can write things here

and ppl who come here randomly will be reminded

of wat an emo-kia i am

seriously mana

my blog is not out of bounds to anyone

especially you :)

i've learnt my lesson to write THINGS

in the notes section of my hp

instead of here

its much safer there

i don hav to worry bout hurting anyone

okay so....

went to make muffins at xinying's house today

it was super fail

and the oven couldnt work

will short circuit like wtf

firstly we went to buy ingredients

and all those things we need

then after tat went to xinying's house

totally messed up her kitchen

den after tat eat duck rice

lols...

next, went to take bus go j8

i missed 410 =.= so had to wait for super long

i got to the library 2nd floor

1st thing i saw, amanda woon.

lols. with some other ppl.

got to mana, kui, mark thr

saw this other kid

who is titus

i have no idea who he is

jus tat he's super annoying

titus and mark

are like paul and matin

jus tat they'r not funny

sat thr for a while

and i realised im turning 14 in 14 days :)

den went to stadium station

to eat yoghurt

yeeyuanowner is funny like siao

lols

went back to station

i go take mrt home, the guys went dunnowhere

mana arh mana

seriously. we are girls

but you cant expect guys to do things

you think its normal for them to wait

but i'll feel bad

im an emo-kia

fine i admit

but this is who i am

i trying my best here

2010-09-08T06:47:00.001-07:00

to ****:

damn

you are great at making me emo

like seriously

im not blaming you la

its jus everytime

i tot i got over it, tat its finally over

at least i make myself think tat

but once i talk to you

you tell me something

and it all comes back

**** was right

********* kills

yeap, its killing me now

to ****:

it isnt as if i want to let people control my emotions

if i could control my emotions

i would make myself be this happy girl

everyone wants me to be

people's opinions are of secondary importance

no their not

at least his isnt

just so you know

im pretending to be this girl everyone wants me to be

and becus of tat im who i am now

thanks for the concern

but i'll get over what im going through

at my own pace

which i hope is fast....

2010-09-06T05:59:00.001-07:00

had the slc thing today

the tea and lunch rock

and i talked to wenting and xinying

bout things and THINGS

:) and :(

den after tat went to meet mana, mark and kui at j8

mark was in a complete emo mouth zip-ed mode

according to them mark didnt talk the whole day

but he did say something to me

before he said 'wat the hell' to all of us

ha! cant believe me coming actually worked

mana told me something shocking

and i got fucking seriously pissed

if mana and kui didnt say my eyes was red and started staring at me

i would have jus cried there

like seriously

damn

mark wont tell why he acted so weird

which jus added to my pissed meter

den when i taking bus home

i saw ***** and *******

they took the same bus like OMG

not OMG for me la, but if ****** knew

she confirm will be like 'really?! where they stop?!'

STALKER MUCH OMG

*hai* my life is getting worst everyday

2010-08-29T05:36:00.001-07:00

im such a selfish retarded person

i know you guys are jus friends

but why am i feeling sosososososo

sad. and jealous.

tat picture

i cant stop looking at it

but looking at it makes me feel even more

sad. and jealous.

you guys are jus close friends

who go out tgt all the time

tats all

i know tats all

im sure tats all

but i still feel sososo

sad. and jealous

whywhywhywhywhy?

why do i feel jealous? and sad?

cus i cant be close friends with him like she is?

cus he acts differently when im around?

i don know a thing

bout him, his life

wat he does, whr he goes, who he is

i know nothing

i guess these are jus a few reasons why

i feel so fucking sad :(

2010-08-25T05:53:00.000-07:00

today sucked

science? some stupid experiment

yee yuan keep hitting me

art? some new teacher tat looks like a coffee shop auntie

tat continued wasting time talking bullshit

when we were alrdy late as usual

and caused us to not be able to finish our work

hate her already

recess? i pei-ed mana the whole recess

cus SOMEONE is up to her old tricks

jus when i thought she was getting not so bitch

stupid fucking backstabber

cry all you want, cus we know tat you're the 1 talking bullshit

and we'll be with mana no matter wat you say

cus unlike the friends tat you made turn their back against her

we're not so stupid to believe you

*no offence to the friends*

maths? usual thing

english? sucked as always

lit? well, there was mcnoe, of cus it sucked

after school.....

walked out of class whr denise was waiting

and she didnt see me, lols

pei mana go locker

den met xinying and denise they all at foyer thr

went home...

2010-08-24T06:15:00.000-07:00

wats the singnation thing?

its no diff from normal days other than sitting somewhere else loh

and kui and mark finished my candy

though i said they can finish it la

but at least leave 1 for me mah! :(

history? sucked as usual

maths? *haiya*

recess? better than lessons loh

in library as always

hungry as always

gastric as always

and he wasnt there

*sigh*

science? hate science =.=

chinese? well chinese has always been nice

wats with the jerking thing between sr and kui tat erick suddenly mentioned

lols

did our files

funny little chats

lols

cf? wats the use of it anyway =.=

after school.....

i was supposed to go eat lunch with mana la

but den felt bad towards my laopo

cus i went out with mana ytd den today oso go wiv her my laopo will jealous

though she got joel

so stayed in school

and regretted it the moment xinying and denise came down

boring like siao =.=

i just stared at the air

wth...

den kept calling ppl to ask if they want buy denise's band tickets

lols

if i wasnt wrong, when i called kui, he used a disgusting girly voice

creeped me out but made me laugh big time

my hair comes into good use when im calling ppl in school :)

*hai*

all in all

my day sucked

cus i found i don mean a thing to him

i'll jus be a bad memory

nightmare

some stupid girl in his life

but i'll still like him like i did before

like he likes her

2010-08-21T20:20:00.000-07:00

i always knew

i jus didnt want to admit it

after all...

there was hope

even if it wasnt real

it made me smile for tat short time

jus tat after tat

it hurts more

funny thing is tat

i told you to admit the truth

which i knew you know

and yet i myself

dont want to admit tat

its never gona happen

why do i hav to be the 1 to spell it out in your face?

why mus i be the 1 hurting you, by telling you the truth?

you hav no idea how much tat pains me

you hav no freaking damn idea

im crying not only for you

but also because of you

for myself

2010-08-02T05:52:00.000-07:00

seriously

i am angry

annoyed

at the way you treat my friend

freaking bastard

at first it was your mum

then your studies

and you actually asked her to wait

do you think tat as time passed

she will stop loving you?

do you think tat some distance

would change things between you?

3 words: wait for me

a girl can wait forever after tat

and you actually found a new gf

short 1

i mean come on!

you 2 are the same height

when you sit down and she stands up!

you wanna find a new girl?

get a taller 1!!!!!

i feel like an angel compared to you.

BASTARD!

2010-07-31T07:04:00.001-07:00

when you told me something

tat has nothing to do with how you feel

wat you want

or anything close to your heart

i said i don care

when something happened

and i tried to talk to you

when i tried to help

u threw tat shit back at me

you don noe how i felt

you don noe anything

since you threw tat shit back at me

when you don understand

i'll play your game

i wouldnt give a damn bout you anymore

im jus doing wat you told me to

u said i don care

so i wont care

no matter how much it hurts me

to ignore you

to not be able to message you saying

'im bored'

boy. im drawing the line.

to save myself from anymore heartache.

believe me. it hurts.

you make me hurt so much.

i hate you.

2010-07-24T07:50:00.000-07:00

i don like him.

not before, not now, not ever

its jus tat he reminds me of him

another guy

the one i actually really did like.

they treat me the same way

as a replacement for the girl they like

why do they all treat me like trash

someone they can get to come and go

whenever they want

damn

i really do hope people don get it wrong.

cus i do NOT like him.

he makes me cry

HE makes me smile.

HE is the only guy tat i like

tat did not made me cry

like crazy every single night.

the best guy i ever liked

but then...

HE likes another girl

some freaking girl which he wont tell me who

i guess the pain starts, again

all over again...

2010-07-09T07:00:00.000-07:00

Since i've been walking in the wrong direction

i barely recognize my own reflection

scared of love but scared of life alone

since i've been playing on the safe side lately

building walls around my heart to save me

but it's time for me to let it go

yeah im ready to feel now

no longer am i afraid i would fall down

it mus be time to move on now

without the fear of how it might end

guess im ready to love again

just when you think the love would never find you

you run away but still it's right behind you

it's jus something tat you can't control

2010-07-09T06:49:00.000-07:00

Z reminds me of E.

I really don noe why.

They don look alike.

They don act alike.

E's not as 'enthu' as Z.

It took me days to figure out why

I feel like crying when I see Z

Unhappy.

Was messaging Z that night.

When I suddenly thought bout E.

And finally figured that it was cus of him.

Though I don noe why.

But, im sure.

2010-07-01T05:50:00.000-07:00

house of night series book 7 burning

there's this part

tats so touching

i cried no matter how many times i read it

heath liked zoey since they were both little children

he's been wiv her since they were young

zoey's soul shattered when heath died

heath had to make a choice

let zoey go, leave her, so tat she can save the world

or stay wiv her until she finally fades.

guess the 2nd choice is easier for every1 right?

but... he did the 1st

heath left zoey

wat he said to her

ohmy i feel like crying again

the book... it said tat

heath saw through the fading zoey she was

he saw the girl she was in 4th grade

uneven self-cut bangs

he rmb the summer he left her for a family vacation

and coming back wiv her a new person

his goddess

come on people, how can you not feel touched!!!!!

his giving up the one and only girl he has ever loved

and the part when he was telling her he had to go...

i cant imagine how much it hurt, his heart..

he said tat he'll find her again

tat their love will nvr end

tat love was is and always will be the very thing tat links them.

i so love tat part of the story

everytime i think about tat part of the story

i cry, n idk why

is it cus im touched

tat i want thr to be a guy tat likes me the way heath likes zoey

which i know is impossible

ah wateva

its jus, this part is so touching

this part makes me love heath so much

crying again...

2010-06-26T21:06:00.000-07:00

i hate you cupid

can u stop shooting ppl?

you want shoot also shoot at those

who want to be shooted

who can bear to be shooted

hello cupid! use ur eyes

see which 2 can be shooted

and be tgt!

not anyhow shoot!

innocent ppl here!

2010-06-25T04:59:00.000-07:00

i give up

surrender

white flag

do wateva you want

I DONT CARE ANYMORE

2010-06-23T05:50:00.000-07:00

when i left him

i was so sad

i wanted to forget him

but it was so hard

then i decided to give up

jus let my heart guide me

and now

his fading away

the time which we chat are getting lesser

n jus now, i checked the top fans on fb.

he wasnt there

when school starts

we'll hav homeworks to do

for him, he can still on the computer while doing

so tat he can listen to songs

but me, im not so lucky

im so scared...

2010-06-21T06:44:00.000-07:00

like omg i cant believe its only been 13 days since i last saw him. seems so long. and he wasnt online for 2 days. finally he online le!!!! but his not chattin wiv me. wateva la, now i too busy doin stupid homework...

2010-06-20T04:42:00.000-07:00

im waiting...

waiting for the time to come

when i can see you again

when i can hear your voice

i miss you

your smile, your laugh

and because of you

im finding it hard to smile now

i used them up when i was with you

2010-06-18T04:52:00.001-07:00

one day everything will end

even if its not the end of the world

we'll die someday

2010-06-17T01:38:00.001-07:00

just found out something

from things that HE's saying...

HE likes someone...

just found out something

from watching tv...

there are many girls out there

who fits his description of me

much better...

2010-06-15T22:33:00.000-07:00

now use computer got nothing to do!!!!!

facebook. listen to mixpod song.

the end.

unless HE is online lah.

then i can chat wiv him.

tats wat i did a few days ago.

now i keep missing him.

like i online he not online.

he online i not online.

sian =.=

then ytd when we were both online

my mum want watch movie

so watch movie (on computer) full screen

and didnt see his fb chat.

WTF!!!!!

i didnt reply his message!!!

i missed my chance to talk wiv him!!!!

so sad....

2010-06-15T00:26:00.001-07:00

im so sorry, tat i cant forget bout you

but... will you remember me?

even after i leave

will you think of me?

i hope you do

and tat you'll be smiling when tat happens

2010-06-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

my facebook messages was written just for the fun of it.

my facebook messages is written just for you.

2010-06-08T21:43:00.000-07:00

came back from malaysia

im alrdy missing the place and the people

especially the people

my nicenice grandparents

my super duper cute nephews and niece

my annoying cousins

and the dogs

the way i don know whr im goin next

the way i don know whr in the room im gona sleep

the car rides

the way i see my cousins' face when i wake up

the way i can walk around outside the house

just for the nice feeling it gives

the way i feel like im home thr

im already missing it soso much...

2010-06-02T22:21:00.000-07:00

yo ppl, back to blogging cus nothing to do

holiday sucks!! so damn boring =.=

my grandma at my house now

she's been here since

i dunno a few days ago

seriously, i cant understand wat she's sayin

worst now, cus her fake teeth drop into toilet bowl

lols! got wind haha!

then tmr ptc my dad goin

listen to tchrs talk crap

then go home

then at night go back malaysia

my cous wedding!!

got more angpao to collect le

lols, $.$

cumin back tues night

so ppl miss me! ^.^

my mum n dad goin back wiv me

but their gona dump me at grand's on tues

they goin genting casino

(singapore 1 to ex$)

sian lah!!!!!

2010-06-01T21:41:00.000-07:00

there's this guy

who keep saying i emo

SO ANNOYING

there's this girl

who keep asking me to say

'SHUT UP'

there's this other guy

who loves to insult me

HURT

there's this other girl

who makes me feel guilty cause

ITS OVER BETWEEN US (sort of)

but the worst thing is

im alive and i hav to go through all this things

ANNOYED!

2010-04-07T02:15:00.000-07:00

update on me :)
Laopo no. 1 : GILLIAN
Laopo no. 2 : Denise
Girlfriend : Joseph
Son : Kenneth
muahahaha

2010-04-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

i noe i said i'll post bout camp
but im totally not in a mood...
so ya
n smting else to sm1
:smhow, i feel you've changed
smhow, i feel you're not the 1 i knew
the 1 tat i trust...
but... you've still got my back rite?
you'll still be thr for me... rite?
i don need an ans cus i noe its a yes
n i noe wat im gona ask of you is absurd n impossible
but pls can u pls jus let me see the old you?...
for ... at least a while... pls...

2010-03-16T19:38:00.000-07:00

omg
justin bieber is soo cute!!!!!
currently label myself as his fan!
omg
omg
omg
omg
omg
super duper cute!!!!
y isnt thr any1 like him in class
or in schl
or wateva
the point is his cute n i luv him!!!!
one time n one less lonely girl sang by him rocks!!!!!

2010-03-15T06:39:00.000-07:00

hey ppl! back from camp
super tired sia
my whole body ache-IIIINNNNGGGG
but its actually quite ok la
n im sort of missing it
the time when im with my frenz
doing things together

despite the annoying things that happened
the annoying ppl which annoyed me
the rushing around
the stuffing of food
the tiring drill
the hard floor

but the good times
the resting
the bonding
the talking b4 sleep
nice...

i say tat camp sucks
but actually i tink it rocks!
n i suddenly felt this.. pang of heart ache
the reality struck me
tat this camp is ending
tat im leaving this place
leaving my frenz
until i come back for schl
which is so different
in camps, we stay in schl for days
sleep thr, eat thr
but in schl
boring like siao...

im missing so many things...

i'll talk bout what happened in camp next time
byes...

2010-03-10T21:40:00.000-08:00

We're the best of friends
and we share our secrets
She knows everything
that is on my mind
Lately something's changed
as I lie awake in my bed
A voice here inside my head
Softly says

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
the feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
if you never show
the way you feel inside

Oh I'm so afraid
to make that first move
Just a touch and we
could cross the line
Every time she's near
I wanna never let her go
Confess to her what my heart knows
Hold her close

Why don't you kiss her
Why don't you tell her
Why don't you let her see
the feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
if you never show
the way you feel inside

What would you say
I wonder would she just turn away
Or would she promise me
that she's here to stay
It hurts me to wait
I keep asking myself

Why don't you kiss her
(tell her you love her)
Why don't you tell her
(tell her you need her)
Why don't you let her see
the feelings that you hide
'Cause she'll never know
if you never show
the way you feel inside

Why don't you kiss her
(why don't you kiss her)

lyrics of Jesse McCartney's Why Don't You Kiss Her
suddenly thought of JaeSie
which lead me to Jesse McCartney
which lead me to finding his songs
which lead me to this song
which every single person in this world who loves someone secretly should listen to
THE CHORUS ROCKS!

2010-03-10T21:36:00.000-08:00

got a hair cut
looks okay i guess
how i look like?
broom? egg? apple?
choose urself when u see me

ICT finally done
super sian
n geog is like chim =.=
but done (cus i copy paul's)
muahahahaha

2010-03-08T04:37:00.000-08:00

When we honestly ask ourselves which person in our lives mean the most to us, we often find that it is those who,instead of giving advice, solutions, or cures, have chosen rather to share our pain and touch our wounds with a warm and tender hand. The friend who can be silent with us in a moment of despair or confusion, who can stay with us in an hour of grief and bereavement, who can tolerate not knowing, not curing, not healing and face with us the reality of our powerlessness,that is a friend who cares... ~Henri Nouwen
found this on rueyying's blog... n find it true...

2010-03-06T04:24:00.000-08:00

i miss the past
when i was happy
or rather
when i should be happy
at tat time
i kept thinking bout the past (past's past)
thinking bout how i felt cus of how others treated me
thinking tat all good things isn't gona last
thinking tat i was alone
when actually
they hav sort of accepted me
despite the past (past's past)

thinking back
found that i was foolish
n didn't look at now (past)
i wasted the things my babes' did to help
to pull me out of misery

now, life sucks
but at least i know
someone truly luvs me
as a real friend
at least i know
tat even if we drift apart
even if we never talk
she'll be thr for me
n tat is a big enough thing
to pull me through life
i can hang on
n continue acting
in this ever lasting show...

2010-02-27T20:55:00.000-08:00

watched titanic ytd
though i've watched it 4 like thousands of times
i never get tired of it
its so touching
the way rose n jack luvs each other
n jack even died...
but he still held on to rose's hand
mayb its cus their hands r frozen stiff
but ya... touching...
n in the end
when rose died...
she went back to titanic as who she was then
jack was waiting for her...

titanic did sink
but is the luv story true?

how i wish tat
smting like tat can happen to me...
i don mean tat i want to board a ship tats gona sinks
or tat i want the guy i luv to die...
as a ice-pop sinking down the sea...
i mean the luv
the luv tat is so ...
romantic...
tat they would risk their lifes for each other...

all in all: TITANIC ROCKS! haha!!!!!
smiley faces: ^.^ :) XD XP!!!!!!

2010-02-05T00:59:00.000-08:00

its seems tat i can nvr find it...
but y isit tat others can?
n so easily too...
it looks so simple
all i need is 1 ting to find it
but whr the hell is tat ting?
can sm1 tell me!!!!!

2010-01-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

hey guys, thx 4 the tagsss! ^.^ to angguan: when did u paiseh me? pls refresh my memory cus i totally don rmb. mana: wats ur blog url?

2009-12-25T23:11:00.000-08:00

hiie guys, sry but my cpu spoil so don expect me to update frequently. lesser than before le lah. once in a blue moon but once in a rainbow moon kay! currently at xinying's house. wtf loh, got stupid gb camp on mon. oh n geraldine, i'll try to update... ltr. need bring uniform to camp leh! so mafan...

2009-11-23T22:10:00.001-08:00

kay guys, finally posting n im gona giv u guys a choice.
im being a free maid at home = cook n clean n at my mum's orders
so i no time post when my mum's not at home
n when my mum is at home i cant post
so vry limited posting time
thus
im gona list down all the things
tat happened recently tat i rmb
kay lah, not recently, since dunno when 1
here cums the list, their not in line as in time
i mean like their not listed according to when it happened
aiya, u guys gte it rite?
wateva, u don get it i oso don care
pls giv me the tings u 1 to noe wat happen in tagbox...

-Golf
-CIP childcare centre
-Pizza Hut
-PTC
-Fun day at J8
-1 of the dance practice days whr xinying, kenneth n angguan came my house
-thanksgiving party
-day out wiv my top bffs!!!! =gillian[1] n jessie [2]

now choooooose!!!!!!!

2009-11-12T21:24:00.000-08:00

sry ppl, but tat tag was NOT i repeat NOT writen by me
the tag was the 'i love eugene' tat 1
is TEO ANG GUAN write 1
i repeat is TEO ANG GUAN write 1
thank you very much

2009-11-11T21:25:00.000-08:00

THX GILLIAN DARLING!!!! LUV THIS BLOG N I LUV U!!!!!
so angguan n xinying n any other person hu's tokin bullshit a.k.a sayin me n eugene vry pei blablabla tat sort of stuff, pls shut up n giv up cus it ain't gona happen.
i will only luv my darling gillian babe ^.^ n tat was meant for geraldine as well

oh n gillian, u seriously don needa hack my wateva account. the passwords all the same. other than a few exceptions like this 1 n mixpod 1. but these 2 the same 1 oso. lols.

gona make sum changes to the music n headings n intro. hope u don mind babe ^.^
pls enjoy your stay if not jus tell me. i'll kick ur butt so tat u can fly to america, definately away ^.^

2009-11-10T22:31:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYBAAAAAAAAAADY :D
Gillian is the best person ever :D
AND I'M FINALLY MEETING HER ON FRIDAY !
YAY .
WE'RE GONNA WATCH HEAVEN'S POSTMAN .
OMGOMG , JAEJOONG IS MAIN CAST .
KIM
JAE
JOONG
WHEE .
Okay im mad .
Ok .
Ok .
alright .
Let's see .
Jennifer laopo ah , if you dont like this skin , you can change lor ):
Hehehehe .
Whee .
Okay .
When we go heartland more after the movie .
We .
will.
trick.
some.
strangers.
HAHAHAAHAH .
Like .
"OI" .
And.
we.
walk.
away.
act.
like nth happen :D
IF . we got the guts .
HAHA .
KAY .
I HELP YOU POST LIAO .
WHEE .
KAY
BYE .
SUPPORT.
KIMJAEJOONG.
AND DBSK.
THANKYOU.
BYEBYE.

[edit]
I'VE " HACKED" INTO JENNIFER'S MIXPOD ACCOUNT ALSO .
PEEHEETEEHEEWEEHEE .
[/edited]

BYE !

2009-11-10T20:47:00.000-08:00

BUKIT TIMAH NATURE RESERVE TRIP

i 4gt the date le lah, but i rmb is thurs cus it was after chapel. the bus was great! at least better than the 1 wiv weird pattern outside n window wiv cracks n holes n crashed chairs. at 1st sit wiv shimin at the seats in front of back door. but cus shimin was part of the leading group so she went to the front. then i sit alone. damn shiok sia. no didi-dada from shimin n full charged hp, listen to song lalala~~~
but b4 shimin went to the front, her insect repellent cap fell to the back door thr. when she bout to go front i go take for her. kelv saw n say 'got gold meh' knew wat i was tinking? :'shut up lah freakin asshole, got gold then u shld be the 1st 1 attracted to it. n i don tink gold is transparent'. but didnt say anyting lah.
we needed to be in groups of 5. n cus bobo oso leading team, the crazy group of 4 needed sum1 else. so obviously yours truly filled up the empty space, anyways, im the 1 hu doesnt belong in class so hu else will want me in their group. n im so not gona join jt's 1. don ask me y, i jus don 1.
when 1st reached, got monkeys! n squirrels! so cute! take pics wiv ppl. the climb up was OMG so hard!!!! it was so steep, i tot i was gona fall down n roll all the way back. lols, tats too exxagerattingggg.
n it was damn tiring. my group n i was sort of last, wiv the tchrs. elijah was in front. n i tot of asking elijah to carry us u, we'll take his bag, no prob!
then thrs the stairs. after a steep slope thrs a steep stairs, wtf! suddenly the black n white duo was in front of us. n they were annoying yeah, but at least they kept me laughing. i tink. yeah wateva.
finally reach the top! n saw lots of old ppl thr. they looked fine after the climb. unlike us, weird... eat lollipop tat shimin gav me on bus, i luv me sum lollipop! eat sweets given from the crazy group of 4. took many pics of em. started taking pics of paul, then the black n white duo. funny sia. 1 of the pics had mr ng face. facing the camera. mayb he found it interesting tat the crazy bitch wiv broom hair was takin pic of black n white duo. how would i noe, im not him, n i definately don wanna be him. took pic of sherwynddy as well, he was emo-ing behind a rock.
then took group pic. marin n barnabas n louis sat on the giant rock. highest point of singapore was so low sia. n wow, singapore is 1 degree N of the equator. lols.
went down, was still takin pics. stop at visitor centre to find ans 4 WS. i didnt actually do anyting as usual XP.
went for break. eh w8, TAT was when i ate the lollipop! hahas XP. took a bite from both amelia n samantha's ice-cream. orange flavour, nice ^.^ would hav bought 1 myself but no time! sad... got on the bus. n was gona sit by meself again [GREAT!, i mean seriously!^.^] but weiqi sat bside me. sigh.
got back to schl n it was boring all the way through. not sure if i went out wiv the 1D ppl, blank out.

2009-11-10T20:42:00.000-08:00

hey ppl! thx for all the recent tags ^.^
things tat happened lately:
-Bukit Timah Nature Reserve Trip
-Golf
-CIP childcare centre
-Pizza Hut
-PTC
-Fun day at J8
gona tok bout this stuff so pls w8w8 ^.^
even though i don agree wiv xinying but hope the rest of u tink its 'entertaining' or wateva ^.^

2009-11-05T21:18:00.000-08:00

don noe wat the hell is wrong wiv my blog. got tat weird weird ting at the side AGAIN. n my pretty pic at the top oso gone =.= so sad. last time oso like tat. ask kelv to help me oso cnt, in the end deleted it n asked gil babe to help me make new 1. which is this 1. idc le lah, ltr delete make new 1 go through so much trouble...

oh n HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE HWEE ^.^ or rather HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SZE HWEE ^.^ cus bobo's b'day was on wed 4/11. lols.

then is songs. gettin sian of river flows in u so changin it. What hurts the most by Rascal Flatts. found it at Shana's blog n luv it! then is So sick, male n female version. introduced to me by amelia so thx ^.^ hope u guys like it ^.^

then is stuff. since the last time i posted was dunno how long ago, many stuff happened so many things to write. n 4 tat i'll need at least like dunno how many hrs to write finish evryting, so next time when i hav time ^.^

2009-10-21T05:14:00.000-07:00

ah! im soo happy! my chi paper 2 got 67 leh! n is 67/70 ok! overall get A1 ^.^
last 3 period check chi paper. walao, i 1 sleep jus listening 2 their crap loh =.= cant they jus giv us our paper n let us off? grrr... went to canteen rite after they say can go. found xinying, she gona go hospital check-up. n no she's not pregnant. amelia came when i was tokin 2 xinying. couldn't find the others. as in denise, kenneth, angguan n eugene. so went amk hub wiv amelia. eat mac cus kind me donate $5 [all tat i hav left]. intended to use ez-link pay but the stupid person thr say cnt. i tot can loh! so embarassed... amelia eat ice-cream cone then we go liao. sian =.= took bus back n i tink i saw pamela [sis fren]. 1 stop away from mine, ywl boarded!!!! omg i miss her so much. was standing so she stand beside me. she was like 'can we tok?' n i was like 'tok wat? tok shit arh?' then went down. lols!

2day was damn funny. classes as usaul but exam over liao mah! so can do own ting. for most of the classes at least. mdm lum ah mdm lum. GO THROUGH THE PAPER FOR WAT LAH! but doin own ting in class means i'll be : sleeping, staring into space, scanning the class, hoping tat the crazy group of 4 see me n tok 2 me or reading the book shimin is reading when she don wanna read it at tat moment. yep. its sian de loh. but after/b4 schl starts, my true me cums out when im wiv my current best friends group. i cant help but smile at the thought of their jokes n harmless/harmful/annoying insults of each other. n thr, im part not lookin. which is sooo not the case wiv the well : my class. ^.^
couldnt find the others so went to w8 13 thr. cor n msg xinying 2 ask her whr she is, nvr reply =.= saw denise walking to mrt thr wiv zilin. followed. was waitin for mrt or rather waitin for xinying. cor-ed her n she tell me stay thr. cor her again when i saw her head along wiv kenneth n eugenes. then mrt cum. was trying 2 decide whr to go. eugene say go toa payoa[wateva] eat kopitiam. so currently i hav listed him as 'kopitiam 怪伯伯' lols! we look at the map tingy n tried again. tot of Raffles City, Chinese Garden n the funniest tat kk came up wiv: CHANGI!!!! wtf loh! muahahaha! still got lots more. went to food court eat. eugene eat dunno wat tomyam tingy. eat until his face al turn red like the monkey butt. he go buy drink for him n kk. i keep drinking kk 1 loh, muahahaha ^.^ saw xinying's ahyi oso. went to library. on the way suddenly rmb-ed i went thr b4. when i was small. got pic ok, n i tink i got lost thr b4. i TINK hor, not sure. eugene went thr borrow 2 comics. then we go liao. saw his ez-link pic n OMG so ugly! lols, he look like plumb up size of gaivin sia. muahahaha. then went popular xinying buy comic. then went home. when goin mrt station, kk n eugene compete down the stairs. see hu faster. as kenneth once oways said '1 word childish, 2 words 幼稚'!!!! so rite! then they walk together side by side. definately gay couple. so now i listed eugene as 'son-in-law' lols! when on mrt back. eugene was tokin bout mountain range. which in other words is kenneth's face. north pole: top of head. south pole: penis. reason: both part mus hav hair. fold mountain: pimplessssssssssss... volcanoes: boobs. wtf loh! so darn funny sia!!!!

sigh tats all bah, ^.^

2009-10-17T20:22:00.000-07:00

its soooo darn boring now!!!!! cant w8 for tues to cum. n my results sucks!!!! lets jus hope my other exams wouldn't be so suckish loh. not rly feeling well. like normal, i wanna sleep all the time. like normal, i sneeze all the time. but now keep coughing oso. wtf... n sherwyndyy, my previous post is not my own 1. is chorus of 'I Wanted You'. go listen lah, vry nice ^.^ im rottin at home now... n my bro got back from NS. for weekend only lah, but i seriously cant stand him. cant he jus shut up?!! n he has his own room loh. mus cum our room meh? snoresnoresnore! snore until i cant sleep! wtf!
sigh, wateva, my life sucks lah =.=

2009-10-16T23:37:00.000-07:00

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I love
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me when I sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you
.......................................

2009-10-14T00:25:00.000-07:00

currently at denise house blogging obviously. xinying sick liao so sad, keep coughing... get well soon xinying!! she, eugene, anggaun n my darling son kenneth playing games wiv poker. not big 2 lah, if is tat then i'll be thr, not here. evan n dawn playing monopoly n denise watching the poker game. well she went out jus now. wateva =.= art exam was boring. n mine was damn ugly, both the prep n final work. i hate art. jj took quite long. geraldine's 1 was vry nice. lol, im siannying now loh. wtf, xinying's shouting though she's sick. n angguan laughs damn loudly. wtf, byebye n i love u darling gillian babe. n ur schl was supposed 2 be phs not pymgs. ok sry plmgs happy =.=

2009-10-10T19:51:00.000-07:00

went to causeway point on fri after sci exam n hey! it was quite easy leh! waited for angguan, kenneth, eugene, xinying n denise at sign in sign out part wiv amelia. waited 4 damn long den went up 2 find them. found them outside 2nd floor tchr's office. went 2 causeway, n was laughing all the way in the mrt. lols. me, kenneth n denise walkin way bhind the others. when goin up the escalator, got gals from other schl infront of us. 1 of em drop her hp on the top part of the escalator. then kenneth said smting. but i only heard eugene. denise wasnt in the situation loh. so filled her in. n the 3 of us was laughing all the way while running towards the others. lols loh! omgomgomg. they keep askng us wat happen, we all laugh until stomach ache no time say liao.wtf so damn funny! went to food court n eat then go popular. so darn funny. i keep choke n almost choke when listening 2 the jokes thir crackin. i 4gt wat amelia said. then i say smting bout vomiting on eugene. then angguan laugh like siao. he was the only 1. n i was laughing not at wat i said but at angguan's laugh. lols! then went 2 popular buy file but left it in denise's bag. after tat tack mrt. amelia got off at amk then the rest of us went to bishan take bus go xinying's house. denise was gona cum but we ask her take poker. she went back wiv eugene, angguan n kenneth. me n xinying went 2 xinying's house. pudding didnt bark leh. i play wiv pudding, then the guys cum. denise stayed at her house. sad lah! then we play poker. n pudding. then xinying's ahma came. walao loh, i lose 1 round then i swope wiv eugene. eugene lose so many rounds he still playing =.= my n pudding lie on xinying's bed, on the verge of sleeping =.= when my bro called to see whr i was cus he cumin back but n key 2 open door. angguan ask me keep quiet cus we'r in library. then they act like librarian cum 2 ask us keep quiet. walao eh, seriously, whr can u find such frenz loh. if it was THEM, they'll b all , faster go home lah. wtf. no lah, if it was THEM, i'd alrdy be home, they all go home after exam 1 loh... sian... went home at 2pm n reached at round 2.30. byebye 2 fun n real me n hello 2 hell which i so hate...

2009-10-07T22:54:00.000-07:00

hey ppl, im here again. this time 4 songs. got bored of chris daughtry's songs so now, river flows in you by yiruma is on. pls scroll down 2 music part to staert t loading if not u'll nvr here it. ok so, enjoy ^.^

2009-10-07T20:41:00.000-07:00

its weird the way i still cry bout this tings...
when i had years of practise to hold the tears back
1 full year of laughter with all my precious friends
i tot i'll nvr cry again bcus of this kind of stuff
but i was wrong
got seperated from my loved ones
had 2 find new
tot tat they could be like gillian
understand, tolerate n forgive
n will always be there for me
i tot it was ok to do wat i did
but i was wrong
caused my parents a bomb
caused my new found frenship 2 break
im further n further away from them now
why? do i blame them? or do i blame me?
following tat he whom i liked
left me with nothing but tears to fight
the gals i noe y, but how cum the guys?

i've put on a mask, to hid who im
but hu would noe y
or the real gal im
act like im ok, but 4 wat idk
for my face tat i woked so hard to keep
or jus to make them tink they didn't succeed?
wat is it u want?
me 2 crumble down? or jus 4 me 2 get lost
i've worked so hard jus to make it work,
but jus 1 mistake n u guys left me?
now i noe who my real frens r
their the 1s who isnt like u

times hav changed along wiv me
now i noe
if u don want me thr, then i'll jus go
wats the use of me staying
when u guys cant even see me
found the people tat i need
to fill up the hole u punched in me
im happy now, without u guys

2009-10-07T20:25:00.000-07:00

u r sooo dead sherwyndyy! how can u tink of food during ur geog exam huh! wtf, ur gona fail, i bet $100 wiv u! lols. geog test done! 2day no schl! so im blogging! while no 1 is at home! lols. oh n even though i noe no 1 will see this, but im so sry eugene n denise! how could i b so stupid. n wat i said gav u 2 trouble. lols. n i only known eugene n bcame more or less frenz like 3 days ago. wtf. lols. im so sry guys!
after geog exam ytd went to drink bbt wiv amelia, though i didnt drink any cus i tink the auntie 4got my greenapple ice blended. lols, wtf. tried calling ppl 2 cum, but kk hp in his bag, didnt ans, denise nvr bring 1. eugene oso nvr bring. angguan 1 amelia say she tink is his mum ans. but tats weird cus angguan did bring his hp, then how can his mum ans the hp? weird! xinying say she need go home study so cnt. wateva, in the end after we finish, we went to yck mrt station. saw the whole bunch of them [xinying,denise,kelly,jenessa,kenneth,eugene,angguan] thr waitin for 13. but when 13 come, amelia n the guys went 2 take mrt. i take 13 wiv the gals 2 go 2 denise house but changed my mind n went to lib. but nvr go lib oso cus ater calling the guys 2 see if they can come, the ans is no! 1 person vry sian, so i cross bridge go macthr the bustop take 138 go home. went home n found my sis thr , ate maggi mian n when goin 2 finish, kk called 2 see if i was still at lib. said no asked them why n they say 4 fun. wtf... then when finish, they call again n ask me go denise house. waitin 4 bus ask me go xinying's house. took 76 go yck then take 13 go bishan. stop n found the guys or rather kk found me. walk to xinying's house n pudding was barking. went in n was supposed to study but played wiv pudding instead. n eugene pissed kk off by chasing him wiv pudding. kk stormed off without waitin 4 me. wtf. continued... went to denise house. called my mum n she said COME HOME IMMEDIATELY! but still went up. n mafan eugene n denise to help me. again, im so sry! played poker then left at 4.15pm. waited 4 bus 13 for damn long. n b4 it came i tink i saw emmanual! ohmy, but don tink he saw me lah. anyways, went home n got scolded by my mum obviously. but it was short n not painful. so weird.
tats all ppl, pls wish me gd luck 4 my sci which i hav slacked since start of the yr. im so gona fail...

2009-10-05T00:49:00.000-07:00

---LUVS---
-mfps 6a'08!!!!! evry 1 in it!!!!! n of cus my fav of all favs darling gillian babe!!!!!! its not only in matter of words ok? i luv her as much as i luv myself. w8 tat wont work cus i don luv myself. so change. i luv darling gillian babe as much as i luv darling gillian babe!!! which works cus its of the charts!!!!! woooo!!!!!!
-assembling in class![at least better then parade square assembly!]
-the outside of phs
-KENNETH KOH!!! his mum[me][not][im not his mum n i don luv his mum]!!!
-TAN/LEE XIN YING [i prefer tan though lee is the real 1]!! her house!! her mum!! her dog pudding!! her laptop!! her room!! her bed!! ohmy im such a bitch...
-DENISE LEONG!! her sister dawn!!! her house!!!
-KELLY KOK!!
-SHERWYNDYY!
lols, the last 7 ---LUVS--- are jus 4 fun. muahahaha, updating at sherwyndyy's request..!
got many complains from ppl saying my post 2 long. come on, u cant blame me 4 bein a bitch hu likes 2 blog in detail rite? i try 2 go into details n say alot of useless stuff. don bother me. n u guys seriously don need 2 read ths ting cus as paul-ar bear says 'if ur reading this, u hav lots of time'. taken from his msn pm...

2009-10-05T00:48:00.001-07:00

4.10 = mingxue's b'day!!!!!
another evidence 2 show tat im good
i actually rmb-ed his b'day though i hate him!
OHMY!!!
wateva...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MINGXUE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U!
wow, its the 13th b'day of mingxue the bastard n fucking asshole!
omg, i believe his still damn childish n acbc now.
4 sure.
ppl hu agree, pls breath!

2009-10-04T05:01:00.000-07:00

hey people! im here again! touch up on last post cumin... i only wrote the 1st para, then ya, i tink, 4gt liao, like kk said i went 2 play wiv pudding! so cute loh, xinying's doggy ^.^ i wrote darling thr jus 4 fun lah, don jealous gillian. btw, many ppl are my darlings, jus tat ur special! ur my darling gillian babe! ^.^
ok, continue. start from at schl ba. thurs got early dismissal cus [i tink] of children's day. lols! i 4gt wat happened. so blablabla. i went to drink bbt wiv xinying, kenneth, denise n amelia. denise drink so slow... but cant blame her, we got head start cus she n amelia walk vry slow n her order took damn long~ n she kept tokin. so when she took she cant drink can she? found out she looked rly cute wiv her cheeks puffed a little. haha, don be angry if u see this denise ^.^ im rly worried bout tat after wat amelia said. ok continue. they asked me if i 1 go denise's house, i said yes n after finish drinking, we went take bus. amelia didnt went, she took mrt so byebye amelia ^.^ next. take bus reach her house. outside, kenneth said 'take off ur shoes'. living room, kenneth said 'bag put outside'. denise's room when we 1 play poker, kenneth said 'i noe whr, cupboard outside'. when i was gona on the cpu, kenneth said 'press the 1 below then the 1 on top'. 4 reasons tat kenneth knew the place sort of ok n feels sort of rite at home. see sherwynd? learn. played poker, they did geog quiz, ate biscuit tat dawn gav us. denise's mum came home n poker under bed, biscuit wrapper thrown out the window. was shocked cus didnt expect dawn 2 do tat. lols! heh, we were supposed 2 be studying n i tink they weren't supposed 2 eat in the room. me, kenneth n xinying went 2 xinying's house. went 2 her room, she on aircon n fan. cooling~~. big window. nice view~~. cute dog. luv it~~. muahhaha, then on laptop 2 find pics, play songs, look at pics n i bloged my last post. took a video which i luv but deleted on kenneth's request. so sad~~ was about kenneth screaming like a girl cus pudding touched him. eat the long-dunno-wat-its-called-ting-tat-taste-great. denise n dawn came after their mum left. denise asked 4 ice-cream n dawn asked 4 pudding. xinying's mum actually gave us the 4gt-wat-its-called-ice-cream-which-taste-damn-good-n-is-i-tink-quite-x- ahh! so nice! xinying told her mum 'tmr got exam leh' then her mum said [i tink] 'so?' omg i luv her. but we got ask kk explain geog 2 us 1 hor! see we so guai. ^.^ but mum called, twice. seriously, mus she do tat, it was only like 4.30 or so loh... so, i went home while they went back 2 denise's house. byebye ppl ^.^ went home n fun end hell start. sian~~~~
ya, so tats all. ^.^

2009-10-01T00:16:00.000-07:00

currently at xinying darling's house wiv darling kenneth n mayb denise is cumin over but dunno if her sis,dawn, cumin to. but most likely b4 they cum i'll b gone cus im goin at 4 .
anyway , jennifer went to play with xinying dog and here i am taking over her blog.
i am kenneth btw

2009-09-22T23:58:00.000-07:00

muahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!! happyhappyhappy!!!!! its my b'day 2day!!!!!! thx 2 GILLIAN darling!!!!!, AMANDA mama!!!!, kt ^.^ n of cus not 4gting sis n bro lah! 4 sending me b'day msgs. next up, presents! thx zhiwei twinny ^.^, evan lovey ^.^ n jt n zixin ^.^ !!!!! those presents rock!!!!! n of cus not forgetting me GILLIAN!!!!! u being in my life is the best present of all ^.^ oh ya, n my sis gav me hunted!!!!! YAY!!!!!!
but can only read after EOY which is 14 oct! wtf. n im so not gona thx hairy n polar bear 4 giving me a b'day bash. don tink its a party. the root word is bash. which means they bashed me. wtf. but suprisingly, it's not pain leh. muahahaha!!!! im so pro!!!!! n oso thx 2 evry 1 hu gav me b'day wishes!!!!! oso! happy b'day zhiwei!!!!! ^.^ found out tat its my eng tchr mdm lum's b'day osos. so happy b'day mdm lum! ^.^
now: day....
went to schl round the same time, g was sleeping. w8w8w8w8w8. pplpplpplppl cumcumcumcum.... exchange present wiv zhiwei... assembly... morning walk during whitespace, damn sian, was wlking alone the whole time, no 1 tok 2 me loh... eng, class sang b'day song but frm the voice of it i tink less then half of the class sang. was forced 2 smile cus of mdm lum, so i put a fake smile on my face for bout 1s... went 2 devotion 2 take back my math tb from kelly n evan gave me present! chocolate, vry nice leh ^.^... went back 2 class n zixin n jt gav me presents!!!! vry nice oso ^.^... recess... after finish, xinying cum find me then we went up tgt. play here play thr loh ^.^ found kk n asked him for present. no hav present mus confess 2 denise wiv me n xinying as witness. muahahaha, but denise not round so cnt, but lets w8 until tmr... chi, quite ok, doing oral practise wiv jessie(or wateva her name is) when hp vibrated cus gillian darling called me. rushed 2 the toilet n answered her call... maths, hav test... finally the funniest n best part of the day sci. hairy/tofu threw eraser at g. n well, u guys should noe wat happens next. throw her throw thr loh. i rmb clearly tat hairy throw until jj 'somewhr over the rainbow'. PERVERT!!!!! then me n jj change place cus i need 2 msg my loving amanda mama my thx! n sum erm... other ppl. ya. hairy threw at me, hit bside my 'somewhr over the rainbow'. wtf loh. seriously if turn 1 big 1 small his gona die man...... schl over. the fight continued. g went over the boys thr n threw the eraser at hairy's head. im guessing tat hurt. then g duno 1 throw hairy or tofu but hit xinpei's butt! omg tat was so darn funny. n it goes on... after i signed out n was bout 2 go, hairy came n said he n polar bear had a b'day present 4 me. guess wat, its a b'day bash! wtf. they bashed me! when they hit me not pain. but now start 2 pain liao loh. omg, my head, my poor head. if my EOY score vry bad arh, i'll put the blame on them. hit my head until i turned stupid liao...
THE END
muahhaha, tats all 4 my 13th b'day n my 1st b'day in phs ^.^ fun at times not fun at times, sian at times not sian at times, definate diff from mfps b'days. cus it was fun n definately not sian the whole day! ^.^ i rmb they actually tried 2 stop me from going back 2 class after i went out cus they wanted 2 draw the bigbig happy b'day ting on the board ^.^ i miss those days, those people, those times...

2009-09-19T20:00:00.000-07:00

idk wats wrong wiv the tagbox leh... cnt wirte anyting... stupid tagbox... anyways, thx gillian darling!!!!! ok, 1st post written by me for my gillian-made-blog. schl sucks, home sucks, life sucks. im done! ok, haha ^.^

2009-09-18T03:51:00.001-07:00

GRAAAAAAAAA GILLIAN ROCKS SHE MADE THIS FOR ME GRAAAAA
HEHEHEHEHE
HELLO PEEPO IM GILLIAN HERE
PUHAHAHAHA <3